I'm still here.

 I really suck at updating this thing........


So, I figure both of my readers would want to know how my vacation back in August went.  It was kind of like this.....

Meeting Jason David Frank = AWESOME!

Everything else = It was ok.

I was originally going to write detailed accounts of how everything went, but that's really more work then I'm willing to put into something that happened almost two months ago.  It breaks down like this....

Six Flags: Fun, but I need to lose some weight before I go back.  I WILL ride Batman next year!  (that...just sounds wrong)

Comicon: Fun, but too much like a glorified mall with overly inflated prices for most of the stuff people are selling.  Though, I did find this cool booth that sold awesome board games at marked down prices, that's where a lot of my money went.  I also picked up some nifty items for Pixie & the younglings while I was there. That was a lot of fun.

Flashback: Underwhelming. 

Camping: Lonely.  Left a day early.  This might be my last solo camping trip.  The highlight was me eating two "special" cookies the night before I left & finding out why the feeling is called "stoned". 

Things haven't really changed much on my end.  Had a health scare at the beginning of September that made me reevaluate my eating habits.  I haven't drank a can of soda or eaten a bag of potato chips since.  I'm also cooking more at home. 

Work is going ok.  Going on my third supervisor in November.  Hopefully this one sticks around.  I'm finding myself back in a mentor role after the last couple of weeks of being a peer mentor for the last couple of new hires.  It looks like I'll be transitioning back into a floor walker role this Sunday.  Assuming I'm not kept on board for another week of training.

Pixie & I went to go see Gravity last weekend.  Wow!  It was an amazing ride.  I highly recommend it.  A few scenes really hit us right in the feels, but I enjoy movies that elicit an emotional response from me.  Sandra Bullock needs to win an Oscar for this film!

And as I look ahead on the calender, I see the holiday trifecta is nearly upon us.  Halloween, Thanksgiving, and Christmas.  I'm looking forward to them this year more then last.  It should be a fun time. 

 Till next time.  :-)

What is happening to me?

What is happening to me?
I can't be feeling like this again.
Or is this something different?
Perhaps with time, I'll see.

But how much time?
How long does it take until you know?
Why shouldn't I let my feelings show?
I know why.

Because I've been wrong.
I've been hurt before.
I've allowed myself to love
And it's left me battered, rendered and torn.

So I shut down.
I rebuilt my walls.
I picked up the pieces of my rendered heart
And encased it in stone.

I was protected
I was safe
No one was ever going to get in
That was the decision I had made.

But she got in.

How did she get in?

Was it her beautiful smile?
Her wonderfully eclectic personality?
Was it our mutual love of geekdom.
Or our similar parallels in life?

Was it the feel of her body
As she quivers under my touch?
Was it the taste of her mouth against mine
When  I held her to me tight

Was it the nights of passion we've shared?
Was it the way she moans my name?
Was it the way she stares into my soul
Every time I took her there?

Was it our daydreams of adventure?
To just pack up and go.
To just leave the world behind
Where it would just be us two.

I don't know. But, she's here.
She's scaled the walls and braved the traps
She found her way to my heart of stone
And found a way to make it beat again

Perhaps it's also because
I've done the same with her.
She was sealed off too
And the hurt was nearer for her,

I got in too
So here we are
What do we do now?
How do we proceed?

I'm scared
I'm scared of being hurt again
I'm scared of loving
I'm scared of being loved

And so is she
We have that in common as well.
We're scared of what this means
We're scared of what this is.

Is this real?
Is this just NRE?
Is this a beautiful summer fantasy
That will dispell in Fall's chill?

I don't know.

At this very moment
All I know is this
I ache for her. I desire her
I miss her.

Gods help me

I think I'm falling. 

And I'm not sure if I want to catch myself. 

It's Dark Inside

I love this song.

"Demons" by Imagine Dragons has one of the most personal choruses I've ever heard. Great band overall as well.

"When you feel my heat

Look into my eyes.

It's where my demons hide.

It's where my demons hide.

Don't get to close.

It's dark inside.

It's where my demons hide.

It's where my demons hide."

 

Yeeeeeaaahhhhh!!!!

BLACKHAWKS!!!!!

That is all. 

The Countdown to Awesome.

I started putting the finishing touches on my vacation in August by purchasing my tickets to Flashback Weekend. It's a horror convention in Rosemont, IL which happens to be taking place in the same hotel that I booked a room at for the main reason for this vacation. Wizard World Chicago!
From August 6th to the 14th, my itinerary will be jam packed with awesome!  First, a trip to Six Flags Great America on the 6th to kick things off.  The next day will be spent packing & getting last minute things together.  Then on the morning of the 8th I'll head to Rosemont to check into the hotel and check out the first day of Wizard World.  The 9th will be spent "Con-hopping" between Wizard World & Flashback helping my friends at forcedviewing.com track down celebs to interview. 

Then, the 10th.  Oh man!  The 10th is going to be..........

Morphenomenal!

 I have a meet & greet with JDF, the Green Ranger on the 10th at Wizard World!  I am VERY excited for this opportunity.  This will more than likely followed up by more time at Flashback and celebratory drinking for meeting one of my childhood heroes.  

The 11th will be checking out of the hotel, spending some wrap up time at the two cons, and then it's off to the North where I will spend the 11th to the 14th camping.  

46 days & counting!  

  

Welcome.......Again.

So, it's been a while since I wrote anything on Blogger.  If you've visited my page before, you'll notice I've done a bit of....redecorating.  My blog was previously titled "Dark Hunter's Forest."  It was started during a really, really miserable period of my life.  I had to force myself to write the couple of meager posts that populated this page for more than two years.  Much has changed since March of 2011, and I am happy to report that I have made my way through the dark forest and came out the other side a better man. 

And as you can see, I burnt that sumbitch to the ground!  :-P

A divorce, a firing, a broken heart, and a bout of temporary insanity pretty much sums up my 2012.  I stand before you all a more focused, driven, and most importantly....happy person.  I have rediscovered who I was pre 2006 and built upon that.  I have rediscovered my inner strength and have found strength from those closest to me.  I am not where I want to be yet, but I know I will get there.  My way. 

So, why the redesign?  Quite simply, because I wanted to start over.  I have a lot of things running through my head constantly.  I need some place safe to express them.  My blog in it's former state was NOT that place.  As I said, it was created during a dark time while I was in a dark place.  I am no longer in that dark place.  Which is why I "burned down the forest" so to speak.  I deleted those two meaningless posts, and decided to start fresh.  The theme I chose also fits in with where my mind has been lately.  I have finally found a good creative outlet for myself.

Behold!

I have found an outlet through music.  I am learning how to play guitar primarily, but I also picked up a drumset because I love beating out rhythms and letting it take me wherever it will.  The keyboard you see is simply a controller that can plug into my iPad or PC & produce piano & synth sounds.  My goal is to bring the skills I learn together & actually create something.  I have also begun dabbling in songwriting.  My iPhone's become an invaluable tool for songwriting ideas since anytime I get an idea for a lyric, I whip out notepad and jot it down. I recently downloaded an app called Evernote, which can sync up with my iPhone, iPad, and PC so I can access my ideas anywhere.  Once I get proficient enough, I would like to start a band & rock the world.  Or, at least the neighborhood.  I will be using this blog as another tool to share songwriting ideas and acquire feedback.  Because as I've learned from my job, feedback is love.  :-P

Dark Hunter's Forest has been destroyed.  And from the ashes, a new chapter of my life has begun.

Welcome to Hunter's Stage.

Enjoy the show!